does it ever end?

I needed prayers for my moms boyfriend, his mom passed away. Now I need prayers for myself. I haven't talked to my biological father in 3 years and now I am very very very much regretting it. We both have tried to make amends and never settled our problems. WELL, christmas eve he was working in hi bull dozer, a CAT D11R, one of the biggest ones made. He lives in belle fourche, sd, and works in gillette wyoming to make more money. He was driving the dozer on a 50 degree enbankment and it gave way, the dozer went down and rolled, with him in it. He is now at rapid city regional hospital with sever head trauma and might not make it through. It doesn't look good, and now my brother is flying in from Iraq today and will be there tomorrow. My little brother and sister (dads and his wifes kids) dont really understand what is going on or how serious it is. Everyone is there but me, so what has to happen when I am getting ready to go home and possibly see my father for the last time? I have to get tested for Mono or strep throat. I wont know for 48 hours what it is, and then I can't go until the antibiotics are gone. great. I haven't eaten in two days, im out of it and catch myself staring at the walls or just staring off into space. I never thought I would react the way I have. To find this out on christmas morning none the less is horrible, but i found myseld bawling like a baby. I never in the world thought i would react this way, I have so much anger inside that I didnt think it would phase me. But boy has it, i could lose the person who gave me life for god sakes. I may not have the best relationship with him or his wife and siblings but he is still my father, and he could lose his life. Thank god my brother will be there tomorrow from iraq, in place of me since i have some lovely bacteria floating around in my throat that could be potentially fatal to him. I thought i was done crying, until my mother in law hugged me and told me not to be hard on myself, then came the tears. I did the whole "blame yourself" thing, but I know its not my fault, I just can't help to think that i had been tossing the idea around in my head to make amends, or peace with him the past couple of days. I don't know what to do with myself..............I was just staring at the fireplace a few minutes ago.
please just pray, lots. If you type in google, "gillette wyoming newspaper" it will come up with a website as one of th efirst choices. the title is "driver in mine accident" I think. Im done, my back is killing me, my troat is swollen, and im staring into space again.
please just pray and pray lots.